Well at least that's what I thought I might be doing......but it hasn't quite worked out the way I thought.
This year I embarked on getting back into dating and eventually finding someone to share my space/life with.
About me.....I'm mid 40s, female, never been married and love my life. I'm heterosexual, vivacious, intelligent, tall, and in the process of getting myself back into shape. I'm also fiercly independent.
About ten years ago I decided to take a break from dating and just focus on being me. It was meant to be a year....ha! I had been dating in all aspects of the word and decided I needed some time out.
A couple of things happened. I was enjoying my space and time, so the time got longer. More importantly two sisters were diagnosed with breast cancer (both survivors) and my mother passed away from bowel cancer. There was a lot of emotional energy tied up with all of that, and I didn't have the energy to go out and meet new men.
Now I'm ready.
I've come to terms with the fact that I will be without children, but I would like a life partner.
No one told me that this dating business was hard work AND the playing field is different. There are apps, sites, Online social groups, as well as the pubs, clubs and just social interest groups. You name it, there are ways to meet people....but who are you meeting?
Another thing that I wasn't mentally prepared for was the sheer amount of baggage prospective partners come with in this age bracket. Ex wives, ex girlfriends, over bearing parents, children from previous relationships......then we get to those who have never been involved in a serious ongoing relationship.
Oh my.
It's August. I've been out and about since the end December 2014 and I'm still clueless about what is going on. I've been on many dates.....and I am as bad at dating as I was when I was a teenager. I was much better in my late twenties and early thirties, but I can't seem to find that same connect that I had then.
